the rock is growing like crazy. he is almost 7mo. 16lbs, and in the 30% he has been crawling for about a month now. and learned how to sit on his own for a week or so. he is so busy and always wants to be in the middle of everything. always looking for someone to talk to. he pulls the same vogue pose that spunky did when she was the same age. he is such a smile bug and brings so much happiness to our family. we love you buddy.
i have a new found sympathy for my babes. every time spunky gets hurt she screams at the top of her lungs forever(it seems). yesterday i took the kids to cascade springs. i carried the rock in the baby bjorn and then sometimes taz wanted to be held. i was holding both of them and stepped into uneven ground, twisted my ankle, scraped my elbow and cut up my knee(as you can see). it has been 36 hrs and although i haven't cried once out loud, i have been crying inside the whole time. this freakin' hurts. i'm saying sorry to my kids for telling you to stop crying! your tough! i will now be more sensitive i promise. luv you guys
before reading the below posts please understand that i am not depressed, sad, mad, angry, or unhealthy. take the post about friends as a call for reflection if you read this and think yes maybe i have or am doing this to someone, STOP! now. i feel good about who i am. i have problems, i know. if you don't like me great, i don't care, just don't act like we are best friends and talk to others like we are and then not actual be a friend. (maybe you don't know how to be a friend, read i'm sure there's a book about it) Fe' just told me that someone doesn't like her and that she doesn't like her, i said that's okay but we still need to be nice to everyone. there is a difference between being nice and acting like you are best friends when really you don't like the person. i'm ranting sorry. hopefully by now you have stopped reading my now. i am really, really happy and love my life, family, and friends(you know who you are, i love you and hopefully tell you often).
so we don't know what we are doing yet, but are thinking of renting our house. we would prefer to rent to family so that we have a place to stay when we come back to visit. we aren't sure if this is possible so we are putting it out there for a suggestion of what to do. anyone (clean freak, handyman) need a house to rent? if so you know how to contact us.
so it's midnight and i am antsy and disturbed wouldn't you be. i'm moving! but that's not what i want to talk about. the thing on my mind is friends and why it's so difficult to say the truth. i wish someone(in particular ) and others would just tell me out right "i don't really like you." then i wouldn't waste 3yrs trying to be their friend and continually get my feelings hurt when i am not invited to do things after i have invited them to everything and they always come(so wouldn't i think they wanted to be my friend, no they wanted to be friends with everyone else at the event). i realize that by thinking this way that i probably inadvertently done this to someone and if you are reading this i am truly, truly sorry. i should've just told you "don't waste your time on me, i'm not a fan." i understand that i would then need to not get offended if someone said this to me and i can't promise that i wouldn't, but wasting 3yrs of energy and time on something is stupid. shame on me for being so dense for so long. so this is my advice don't be rude with words or behind some one's back, but don't lead someone on!! didn't we learn this when we were dating? it hurts to get dumped but it's better than being strung along. rip the band aid off and let the healing start. you always come out stronger once you know what's hurt or wrong. not that anything is wrong with me. (heehee) but after living here i truly understand that sometimes people just don't click and that is ok!!!! don't act like you want to be my friend or that you like me so that you won't hurt my feelings, cause guess what? you did. sorry for the sadness. i'm not sad just pensive and trying to workout what life is all about. i believe that relationships are what life is all about and can perfect us if we learn from everyone around us,what to do or not to do.
YOU BETTER SIT DOWN FOR THIS ONE. BY THE END OF 2008 BRIG AND I WILL BE BUYING A VACATION HOME, IN LAKELAND, FL., FOR ALL OF OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS, WHERE WE WILL BE LIVING PERMANANTLY FOR THE NEXT FEW YEARS. WE ARE TOTALLY STOKED ABOUT A NEW ADVENTURE BUT SAD ABOUT LEAVING OUR FAMILY AND FRIENDS AND OUR BEAUTIFUL HOME. IF ANY ONE ELSE IS UP FOR AN ADVENTURE COME WITH US. WE WILL LET YOU KNOW MORE AS WE DO. RIGHT NOW WE WILL BE TRAVELING SOME TO PICK OUT THE RIGHT PLACE FOR OUR FAM. we will move when we find a place. we are moving for Brig's job.
it was a weekend filled with the labor of love as we enjoyed each other's company (as you can tell from the above picture, can't you see and feel the love! we love our boys!!!) some of us labored at a football game and some of us labored at the park with the death slide we labored at the lake with waverunners and wind. the kids had a ball as usual.